Cloverr

Do not gloat when your enemy falls

2011-05-01T23:34:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning and was putting my phone to charge when my dad walked into my room and told me,"Osama bin Laden is dead!". To be honest, I was surprised and had to see it for myself to believe. The American president Obama (those two names are very similar and causes confusion!!) confirmed his death and 100's of Americans were out celebrating. In some ways I understand how they must feel but a small part of me was sad because this man who killed so many did not know Love. His heart was hardened and he was seeped in so much hate, I felt sorry for him. He needed God, the real God who is called Love. And God loves us all, and that is proved in Christ who gave Himself a ransom for the ones who turned away. I wish Osama bin Laden could have repented, I wish he knew. I remember praying for him many times to repent and turn to God cause he is a powerful man and had many followers but sadly, he didn't and I have no answers. One of my facebook friends put this as his status this morning:

Proverbs 24:17 "Do not gloat when your enemy falls; when they stumble, do not let your heart rejoice."

So, in all honesty I am not ecstatic like the millions around. The death of a man who did not know God is a sad affair.

Extreme chocolate cake

2011-03-26T05:18:00.000-07:00

I saw a recipe called Extreme chocolate cake on allrecipes.com and wanted to try it ever since so I did today and halved the recipe! It was good but ONLY for a true chocolate fan like my sister. A small slice was too much for me and I don't think I can have chocolate for a while!
Here's a picture of me icing the first layer

And the next picture is the final version with some white chocolate sprinkles

My so called small piece :)

After my sister and I took our pieces(and then she took the rest of the row)

It's an easy recipe(I only make easy recipes) but it really is chocolate overdose so don't make a whole cake and eat it by yourself!!

Meat Loaf!

2011-03-26T02:44:00.000-07:00

Today I decided to make something I've always wanted to try- Meatloaf! I have never had meatloaf in my life and I don't know why! I searched for a few recipes online and finally found a base recipe in this! I used only half a pound of meat and I cooked the meat first and saved the broth for a gravy. I also used a bit of garlic powder, black pepper powder, salt, a hint of thyme, a tsp of barbecue sauce and a couple of chilli crackers in addition to the recipe on the link. I cooked it for about 30 minutes on 175 deg C.

I know the photo doesn't look very appetizing cause I used a small loaf tin and it only filled half the tin and I used the camera from my phone but it tasted pretty good! I made a mushroom gravy using the broth from the meat thickened with cornflour. It was good! A very simple and easy meal to make. Took me about 45 minutes in total (including baking time). Could add some veggies to make a well rounded meal!

Random cooking spree

2011-03-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

Today I decided I wanted to make dinner and I made a baked fish with some rosemary potato wedges. The fish was really flavorful and nice.

I marinated it with lime, a bit of mayonnaise(like half a teaspoon per fish), chilli powder, parsley, pepper and salt. Then I coated it with breadcrumbs and drizzled a mixture of olive oil and butter and baked it.

The rosemary potatoes are really simple and I used olive oil, dried rosemary, a hint of garlic powder and salt and pepper.

I also made some paneer tikka in the evening for which I used ready to use paneer and marinated it with thick yoghurt, a dash of tomato ketchup, chilli power, garam masala and salt and baked it with a bit of olive oil.

Hope you all enjoyed these low quality amateur cooking photos!

Cute cupcakes

2011-03-18T04:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday my mother told me that the Church asked me to bake some cakes for their fund raising sale. And they wanted the regular good old yellow butter cake. I have a usual recipe that I normally make but today I decided to try this one and i tweaked it a bit, changing the 8 egg yolks to 2 full eggs and 4 yolks and I topped it off with a fluffy white frosting. This was the first time I was making a meringue type icing and while I would like liked it to have set more (have harder peaks) it was good and my sister liked it! This was a very random post but I was bored :D

Blind date

2011-03-17T22:40:00.000-07:00

As many of you might know I went to Delhi last month. One of the highlights of my trip was meeting a "friend" I met on Facebook! Some people called it my blind date. Let me tell you the story of my blind date that wasn't nerve- racking, uncomfortable or disastrous.

It all began in 2008 when I was planning to go to Glasgow to do my Masters in HRM. I joined the University of Glasgow 2008-2009 group on Facebook and in one of the discussions met another girl from India who was planning to come to study. We soon took our chats out of facebook and into gtalk and found out we had lots in common and she was a lot like my sister. She lived in Delhi (not common), single, Tamil, Christian, odd quirks, love for food, had a sister etc. I was super excited she was going to Glasgow as well and told my own sister that i'm going to have another sister in Glasgow. This girl, promised to make me cinnamon pork and go on long walks with me. We also vowed to be each others wing women! I was really excited! But things don't always go according to plan so she didn't come to Glasgow finally but we still kept it touch and I even met one of her weird Scottish friends in Glasgow!

So December 2010, I was talking to a long lost cousin of mine who lives in Delhi at Madras about my visit to Delhi and how I have a friend there who I'm going to meet and turns out they know each other too, small world. And then people asked me how I know said girl.. a very mumbled reply came from me...facebook... I was teased for being a stalker, a creep etc. Anyway, in February I go to Delhi and get ready for my blind date with a girl who I've known for more than 2 years but never met and it went just fine. It didn't even feel like we were meeting for the first time. And surprisingly she ended up coming to Nagercoil a week after I got back. What are the odds? So here's to Rina, a friend met in quite an unconventional way and proof that Facebook can help you make real friends :)

My one and only, always and forever

2011-03-16T04:53:00.000-07:00

I live with my parents in the house I grew up. Recently they built a new room for me upstairs so I had to move all my old things. I hadn't opened some of the drawers and boxes in years. And opening them, I felt I was 15 again. They were FULL of boyband magazines, smash hits, TV hits, TOTP, etc. And the majority was of course, Boyzone and Stephen Gately. I found print outs I made with pictures of Stephen Gately and Michael Jackson with the words "My favorite people in the world". I found old "questionnaires" I filled up and My favorite boy was Stephen Gately, my dream lover was Stephen Gately, my favorite singer was Stephen Gately, my current crush was Stephen gately with the words "my one and only, always and forever" in brackets, my aim in life was to meet Stephen Gately etc. Now Stephen Gately is dead. I wonder what that girl who I once was would do if she knew. Yesterday while clearing out, I felt like her and I was so upset, I had to keep reminding myself i'm not 15 or 16 anymore but I dreamt about him last night, something that hasn't happened in years. I did feel like I was 16 and still in school and still madly in love with a pop star. But I'm not.

Tomorrow is St.Patrick's day and the 35th birthday of Steve if he was alive. I have had birthday parties for Steve when I was younger, I have given chocolates to friends in school for his birthday, I was what people would called mental! So, for the girl I once was, I wish my one and only, always and forever a happy birthday.

LoVe

2011-01-16T22:42:00.000-08:00

A few minutes into the New Year 2011, while most of the World was out there partying and getting drunk and celebrating and welcoming the New year, a small group of people went to welcome the New Year by worshipping at a church in Alexandria. It would be the last thing they did on this Earth as they were murdered heartlessly. They were bombed and the explosion resulted in scattered limbs and car parts. Normally I would consider these things something that probably happens on a regular basis in the Middle East but this year it became more personal when I went through the Facebook page of one of the girls who was martyred. This was her status message before she went to church
"2010 is over, this year had the best memories of my life, really enjoyed living this year, i hope 2011 is much better, i have so many wishes in 2011, hope they come true, please God stay beside me & help make it all true"
For some reason, this struck me so bad. I mean, she was just like us. She had friends, a job, school, family, Facebook! And then she is killed for one reason, being a Christian.
The massacre has been blamed on the Muslims by some, the Jews by others and I read somewhere it's the Christians who planned it so others can blame the Muslims and the same thing I read about the Jews. This is crazy! What is wrong with our World?!! Muslims and Jews, stupid half brothers who can't get over a piece of land? Well, at the end of the day, it all comes to that- Israel. What WOULD be the right thing to do? Kick out all the Jews back to Poland and New York and bring back the Palestinians? Or send out all the Palestinians and keep Israel as however God said the Holy land would be? Both don't seem right, both don't seem humane. Most people would say sending the Jews out would make sense as the Palestinians lived in Israel for 2000 years so surely, it must belong to them. But then the Jews can say, well, God gave the land to our father Abraham, we lived there, worshipped there till we were exiled. Then the Arabs could say Abraham was our father too. Nothing seems to be okay, does it? I know this shouldn't concern me but for some reason, it does. I don't think oh they're jews and arabs, I'm Indian why should I care? I think they are people, my people, what can I do?
So much killing in the name of God. In Pakistan, in Iraq, Egypt, Israel, Palestine, India, America, Scotland, England, Russia, China, Iran, and so many many other countries. It doesn't seem right! Killing in the name of God, it sounds blasphemous! Christianity says God is love, it says love your enemies, Judaism says Love your neighbours as yourself, my muslim friends tell me Islam teaches peace too and that the terrorists are mental, and we can't imagine Budda with a gun. So what is wrong with the followers of "God"? If God is love, shouldn't we be followers of Love? Yes, i'm a hippie.

I'll have some pita with that humus, Abdullah.

2010-12-09T22:04:00.000-08:00

Recently I heard somewhere that local Indians were asked what their views were on Hamas and Hezbollah. One girl answered, "Hezbollah is what they say when they want to make fun of Abdullah and Hamas is the dish they make out of Chick peas". The reporter, baffled, told her, "but that's Hummus" and her reply was "Hummus, Hamas, Potato, Potahto".

Let us all eat some Hummus now.

A question for my Christian family

2010-10-29T00:08:00.001-07:00

Yesterday I found out that one of my favorite Christian singer is gay. I never knew this and I found out that she's been in a same-sex relationship for 8 years now. I heard a few tsk tsks and heads nodding in disapproval at this. I mean, come on she's christian and gay?! How could that be?! How can she be gay and sing about God?! These are thoughts that go through most non- judgemental Christian minds when they hear something like this(Excuse my sarcasm).

If I am not wrong, aren't all sins the same? There is no big sin small sin, right?If I am wrong, correct me please. Some of the sins that pop to my mind according to the Word of God is evil doing, adultery, idolatry, slandering, gossip, evil thoughts, homosexuality, fornication, cowardness, blasphemy, etc. So why do people gasp in horror when a Christian is gay or having pre-marital physical relationships?Why are those people judged more than the others? I mean people don't talk too much of the statues of the Blessed Jewish woman Mariam who was the Earthly mother of the Christ that occupy the churches of today or all the statues of the Saints of God when that is clearly idolatry(when most of them probably fought to abolish idolatry and polytheism) and most of us(I speak for myself) are guilty of lying, gossip, evil thoughts etc. So why is that somehow less sinful? Why doesn't that make headlines? Why don't I see Christianitytoday or other Christian sites or magazines say "A Christian found gossiping!". I know many say they don't judge but who are we to fool ourselves? I know I have judged in the past but God showed me like the others, I am human and I fall at times and sometimes more often than that and when I do, I don't want someone judging me so I think or like to think that I am maybe less judgemental now or maybe I am trying to be less judgemental.

So to my Christian brothers and sisters, I sincerely and genuinely ask this question because I do not know and like many of you I am not as well read and not as authoritive of the Scriptures. If you feel my article is stupid and I am bringing up an absurd matter, please rebuke me in love :)

I miss you, I never knew you.

2010-10-08T21:33:00.000-07:00

It's been almost a year since I left home again to go to Glasgow. Almost a year since I reached Dubai airport with a phone that didn't work and finally called my frantic family on a pay phone to learn that the cause and object of my childhood/teenage celebrity obsession had died. Oh the sadness. The rest of the trip was a blur. Going back to an almost empty flat with a new flatmate I had never met and a life that was new and NOT that of a student. Getting emails and messages of condolences for the death of the man I never knew. And no one understood as no one in Glasgow knew me growing up. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry at the irony of it as the day before I left (today last year) my cousin who came to say goodbye asked me what I would do if Stephen Gately died(she met me first at the peak of my obsession and she asked me since my other favorite celeb, Michael Jackson died earlier that year). I told her since that was not going to happen anytime soon, I didn't want to think about it. The sad evil irony! Of course I blame my cousin and sister for the death. But as always, I had a smile on my face and said things were fine. So on the first anniversary of hearing the tragic tale of loss, here's to Stephen Gately, you flew away, you left, you flew away. Growing up, you made many people call me a sad, strange, boring loser but nevertheless, I was content being all that cause all it took was a CD to make me smile again. Many Thanks for Being There.
Love,
G. Gately.

The Greatest Story Ever Told..

2010-10-07T01:40:00.000-07:00

It started with a Word-the Universe,
Everything, all creation, so very diverse.
He said and it was, it came to be as He spoke.
Yet through their disobedience did His anger they provoke
Man had fallen. “Go!” He said, “Flee!”
Out of Eden, without their Master, man shall now be.
Their very Source of being, their very Breath,
Knew the price that had to be paid was death.
His people, the righteous waited on their LORD
Their soul longed, for Him they adored.
He heard their cries, Merciful and Just is He.
He knew it was time, for the prophecies of old
The Baby, oh the pure Baby, Mary did hold.
He came to fulfil the laws, oh yes and not to break,
They called Him a blasphemer, they called Him fake.
Oh ye hypocrites Love your enemies, He said
Forgive! Repent! And to their God He led.
They did not like Him, They wanted Him dead,
They would know it would happen if their scriptures they read.
“Abba, into Your hands I give my Spirit”, He cried.
The crowd mocked and jeered as He was crucified.
Oh but wait my friends, it doesn’t end here
He conquered death, satan’s greatest fear.
Victory is ours! The veil is torn, Rejoice, rejoice!
Shout to the LORD, shout and make gladful noise.
He loves you; He purchased you and you He will retrieve
Follow Him, Abide in Him, call on Him and just believe.
Praise the LORD, oh praise His Holy Name forever,
I promise He will not let you go, He won’t, never!
Amen.

Creative Calamity

2010-10-06T22:53:00.000-07:00

I've heard it said that with calamity comes creativity,
They say art comes alive when all around there is instability.
When the heart feels dead, the body weary, your mind is wild
You write, you draw, you sing, you paint and it's nothing mild!
I wrote a poem when Stephen gately told the world he was gay
And then I wrote one when I heard he passed away.
A common factor in both instances is sadness on my part
You may laugh but I had a bleeding heart and I took out it in art.
Most of the times I write, it's filled with sad emotion
Or some would say it's just a time spent in devotion.
Take the Psalmist for instance, he sang songs of praise to the Divine
Beautiful songs, but he wrote it when going through a tough time.
Coincidence you say but next time you take that pen or brush, think of what I said.

Unity among diversity, 2

2010-10-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

[Read part 1 to understand what this is about]
I'll never forget the day I went to Loch Lomond with my church, re:hope for someone's baptism cause that's where I saw the beautiful girl with dreadlocks. Later she came and spoke to me at a church event and then we shared a table with another shy quiet Scottish girl. Soon these two became my church buddies, we would read the Bible together and pray together. They were the only ones who could coerce me into watching a James bong movie! We knew as humans we weren't perfect but God was perfect. Without my "fried rice" and "banana", my time in Glasgow would not have been the same. My half Egyptian sister taught me that it's okay to be mental at times and understood my affinity for middle eastern men(she also has the best eyelashes)! My beautiful Scottish sister taught me that God's grace really surpasses all and she is the best listener around. Things may have changed, change is inevitable but I'll always pray they'll be safe under His love.
Someone I must mention was my first friend from re:hope to facebook me. We met at a crafts night in one of the girl's house and on the way back she asked for my full name to add me and before i reached home, i had a request from her. She has a voice of an Angel, strong and beautiful and she's kind and welcoming, you'll never feel like a stranger when she's around. She taught me to be patient when things were messy and always knew to say the right things. She truly represents her Boss!
I met a hot latvian girl in starbucks who wore a gold and black hoodie, I'm not exaggerating when I say she is the most friendliest person ever. Everytime she would see me she would start with, "GIIIIITTUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.......!!" I could tell her things that was going on in my life that not everyone would understand but she did and I'm so grateful that God made our paths cross. Don't ever change girlie :)
My American Vietnamese sister introduced me to another American when we went to see He's just not that into you. Maybe it's the movie, but we bonded. She has a quirky cute fashion sense
that i love! I wish we had more time together, that falafel just wasn't enough ;)
I met this lovely lady as the mother of a friend but soon she was not "just" the mother of a friend! You can feel her laugh a mile away, it's contagious! She is kind and helpful and always lends a listening ear. I'll always be grateful for the picnic/trip she took us for. She taught me to see life on the brighter side and taught me to take chance of opportunities as God creates them.
There are so many more who i'll write about later but in this note, I would like to thank Jenny, shy, calm who didn't even know me properly but still came for my birthday party, i really appreciate it. I enjoyed walking back with you from our woman's Bible study.
Katrina, i really wish we could have spent more time together but I'm grateful i know you and thanks for cooking for us :)
And Beth, thanks for letting me use your kitchen!
I really appreciate everything and hope you're all blessed!

Unity among diversity, 1

2010-09-30T21:51:00.000-07:00

One thing I really miss about being a student in the UK is meeting people from different countries and cultures. It made me realize that we don't need to fit in a particular box and the box doesn't neccessarily have to be a square nor does it have to be black or white. The first person I met was a friend I actually "met" on facebook almost 5 months before we left our own countries and it was totally by accident. I was having fish and chips with my dad under a construction site as it was raining and I saw her walk by and in my mind I knew i knew her and at the same time both of us were like, "hey, are you...?"... my poor dad didn't understand anything. For him facebook, online chatting etc didn't make sense. This friend was Canadian American and she taught me to be calm when there's a raging storm outside. She also helped cure all my throat aches thanks to yogi chai!
The next few people I met, I do not remember to be honest.. some were American, Japanese, Hungarian, Polish, South American, Australian. They were people passing through my life when I was new in a foreign country and needed people to talk to.
Then I met someone while struggling to carry my bags up the 3 floors of my residence. This pretty exotic bubbly girl who told me she'll carry my heavy bag (she did! while i carried a small one) and told me to hurry up so we could go to the University together. This girl, a Persian Indian (I told you she was beautiful) taught me that it's okay to make mistakes once in a while and to love myself and she brought me out of my shell. She also cooked for me, looked after me, listened to all my boring sob stories and helped bought me cheesecake when i needed it! God brought her in my life for a reason and today she's my sister, has been my wife and has been a mother in some sorts. My family.
Then I met my lovely classmates, my lovely Omani sister who taught me what to expect in a marriage and who has been a great help in many ways.. My friend from the land of the Nile, gorgeous with lovely curls always full of life, and always calm, she taught me that nothing is really worth getting worried. My mediterranean friend, always laughing and who knew how to make us laugh. My beautiful Nigerian sister who was taught me about life, love, God and how to handle my future husband, her daughters are blessed to have her as their mother. My gorgeous Russian friend who taught me to have fun in life and not to take things too seriously :) And i must mention our British friend who taught us to be on time and to take work seriously. And then the "Chinese gang" as we called them, who taught us that with diversity there are always clans and that people stick to what they are familar with. I loved the mix.
Then I met my American Vietnamese sister at church. She was my mentor, my friend, my sister. Always there when I needed to talk and still is. She radiates God's love to everyone she meets and I thank my God for bringing her in my life. Our Canadian sister who is always bubbly, active and has the most adventurous, funny stories taught me to love and forgive those I couldn't. Sadly, she didn't approve of our chip and cheese :)
Then I met my very own little Tamil friend... she taught me to laugh when i thought I couldn't, always listened when I was venting and is the best person to facebook spy with. With her, life is never boring and i'm sure a lot will agree! She also taught me that most problems can be solved with a bit of chips and cheese. Be cool, stay cool, have fun my friend!
One thing i especially loved about being there was meeting our Pakistani neighbours. My own Pakistani sister, a fiery, sassy, sexy diva you don't want to mess with, senstive yet strong, deeply in love with the Divine.. she taught me that every individual is pretty much the same yet unique if you can learn to look past the borders. I really enjoyed listening to her outlook on life, love and God and miss it now.
There were others but this is long enough for now.
I miss you all and pray God keeps y'all safe :)

Facebook ... or not?

2010-09-29T23:05:00.000-07:00

It's been over a year since I "blogged". I'm not going to fill in the gaps as my life really is not that interesting(I went to Scotland to study for a year and now i'm working). I'm making a wee list of the pros and cons of Facebook.. Feel free to tell me your fors and againsts.
On the positive side:
1. It helped me make friends even before I left India through the University "networks" and student halls network. Hence, I knew I would know someone when I reached there.
2. I was aware of all the "get togethers" that happened through the "events" pages.
3. People thought I lived an exciting life since i got tagged in some pictures and they thought all I was doing was having fun- Sadly,no one took pictures of me studying in the library!
4. It was my newspaper. Someone died- I knew through facebook, someone got engaged, married and "is currently single"- Thanks facebook! I even knew world events through facebook since most people would put links to world affairs that they were passionate about- be it the middle eastern crisis or Tiger woods!
5. It let me vent feelings about people I liked or disliked publically which is a good oppurtunity for attention seekers. It also helped my creativity as I would sometimes take ages to think of a clever status and finally no one would comment on it :(
6. I could be :) or :( or :-O or :-S or <3 someone without using many alphabets!
7. On a boring night in, our favorite pasttime would be to spy on people's facebook profile. We had a few favorite ones that always provided much needed entertainment.
8. At work I use facebook when i'm bored...which I think is essential. It also provides entertainment on lonely boring nights (but for some reason it was much more entertaining as a student though I have the same people on my list).
9. It helped me reconnect with a lot of people I never thought I could reconnect with.

Cons of Facebook
1. I still haven't met some of the people that I "met" on Facebook before leaving India.
2. We would get excited for most of the events but would finally stay at home with some take away and look at facebook profiles. It didn't help much with the social life.
3. I got tagged in some very ugly pictures.
4. I stopped reading actual newspapers.
5. Some of those awesome statuses of mine ended up in arguements/debates and me being "unfriend"ed.
6. I started getting paranoid that other people would look at my profile on their boring nights in and make fun of me :(
7. I started spending too much time on Facebook I became an Anti-Social but since Facebook was a social network, I thought I was fine.
8. There was a reason why I didn't reconnect with many people but now I am obliged to, thanks to Facebook!
9. It's quite embarrassing explaining to some people why they can't "see my wall" or all my pictures.

That's all I can think of for now. I better go, I have some new "notifications"... :D

Where have I been?

2009-04-09T14:22:00.000-07:00

I'm so inconsistent with this whole "blogging" thing. So much has happened since i last wrote but i don't want to go into all that.
It's the day before Easter and i'm thinking about a million things. One is the passover meal (Pesach Sedar) that took place a little over 2000 years ago when Yeshua Messiah had His last supper with His disciples. When He knew that He was going to be betrayed and killed. I think about His sacrifice and i cannot fathom.
Then i think about last year and how i didn't celebrate Easter (same reason as my christmas story). I think about Aviad Cohen and his ministry. I think about my assignment and how it's going no where. I think about my friend who i thought was dead as i hadn't spoken to him for over two years and who i finally got back in touch with. I think about my friend who told me he lost the love of his life in a car accident that happened in front of his eyes. And then i only think about that. I've known this friend for a while and only now i'm hearing all this and it breaks my heart. It hasn't happened to me but i feel his pain and that hurts. I don't know why i always try to feel the pain of others since i have enough of my own.
Then i think back to the day before the crucifiction. I think about God's plan for mankind. I think about Jesus crucified. About Jesus who died. I think about Jesus, the author of our salvation, the perfect spotless Lamb. I think about the new life we can have in Him. And i think about the promise God has given us, "Every tear shall be wiped from your eyes (Revelations)". And i think it's okay. And i wish i can tell my friend to have courage, i wish i can tell everyone who is hurting that God is close to their hearts and one day their tear will never be.

Happy New year!

2009-02-02T06:30:00.000-08:00

Hello, I know i'm a month late but I must have been busy or something. I don't think i'm very good at this writing thing. Back home, I wrote quite often in my diary but I checked it recentlt and the last time i wrote was in September.. which now seems ages ago yet also like now. Did i just make sense?
I feel my time in Glasgow is fastly coming to an end. Which makes me sad. So many friends to leave. So many bonds which may break. But I pray all goes well.
Apparently in England last week or so, there was a seperated couple and the husband stabbed the wife to death cause she changed her facebook status from married to single. How freaky is that??
It snowed a lot today. It looked so pretty. I was in my room so i didn't feel the cold but i loved looking outside and watch the snow fall.
I hope everyone has a great year and has many brilliant "blog" ideas.

here fishie

2008-12-07T13:44:00.000-08:00

I was talking to my friend Katy today after church and we were discussing "Funny Fish Stories (FFS)". When i was little, my dad got us a couple of gold fish i think and we had a new house maid at that time. My mum asked her to change the water in the tank and after a while the girl came and told my mum how the fishes had died and when my mum asked what she did, she said, "nothing, i removed the old water and put clean boiling water". Well, yes, i think the fishes kind of "boiled" to death. :D
But this one is the funniest. For halloween my church in Glasgow had a "fancy dress fayre" for kids and we had games and other fun stuff. The stall i was in charge of was a fishing one where kids put their fishing rods behind a screen and we would hook on a piece of candy and if the kids were really lucky, we would hook on a polyethne bag of a real live goldfish. Well, so one of the little girls got one and apparently since she probably got bored of holding it the whole time, she put it on the heater/radiator and (i'm actually laughing at the moment) after a while they found the fish in the bag dead (duh!) and the skin had kind of boiled/cooked off the body and was floating on the top. Probably sounds mean on text but when Katy was telling me this i was laughing so hard.
Who else has a FFS?

Last christmas

2008-12-06T09:54:00.001-08:00

Last Christmas, I didn't celebrate Christmas. A lot of people may not know about it but some did. I had a lot of reason. Some very extreme and some simple silly ones. This year I learned to find a balance and I’m enjoying my mince pies and hark the heralds and the lights.

But before we get into the festive spirit, let us take some time to reflect about why we celebrate the birth of this great great Man. This Man whose birth split time, before Him and after Him. But why did He come to this earth? Well let's take a look at some of the scriptures from the Old Testament...

"Therefore the Lord himself shall give you a sign; Behold, a virgin shall conceive, and bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel." Isaiah 7:14

" For unto us a child is born, unto us a Son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder (as the place of burdens): and His name (Shem) shall be called (acclaimed-celebrated) Wonderful (Pele-Incomprehensible, Wonderful) Counselor (Ya’ats-Transformer or Counselor), Mighty God (El Gibor-Mighty God or Chief God-Man), Everlasting Father (Av Eternal), Prince of Peace (Sar Shalom)."Isaiah 9:

"But He was pierced through for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the chastening for our well-being fell upon Him, and by His scourging we are healed." Isaiah 53.5

And what it says in the New Testament

"Now all this was done, that it might be fulfilled which was spoken of the Lord by the prophet, saying, Behold, a virgin shall be with child, and shall bring forth a son, and they shall call his name Emmanuel, which being interpreted is, God with us." Matthew 1:22.23

"For the Son of Man has come to save that which was lost" Mathew 18.11

While this may not be exactly when Jesus was born and may be way too commercial and the silly Santa Claus comes and spoils a few things (I’m not a big fan of the Santa man), let us rejoice and be glad and know that Messiah Jesus did come to this fallen World, and while we were still sinners loved us and was willing to die for us.

hello

2008-11-27T13:03:00.000-08:00

I feel like it's been ever since i last "blogged". I am far far away from home, doing my post grad studies in the U.K. It's a good experience and lots of work but i'm managing pretty well. God has been faithful. I hope to start "blogging" more regularly.

dead and healthy

2008-04-12T00:25:00.000-07:00

I was reading this article the other day which was about how to tell if a fish is fresh or not. One of the points was, " If you touch it and the skin does not get dimpled, then you know it is in it's pink of health". Ok, How can something that is quite clearly dead be in it's "pink of health"???

c'est la vie

2008-03-03T05:51:00.000-08:00

It's quite strange that when my parents get a call or a text i ask them who it was but when they do the same i give my big speech about how i never have any privacy.

arrgh

2008-03-01T22:24:00.000-08:00

There's this very irritating bird that sits near my window and goes "tootoo....tweeeeetttweeettt...tootootweeeeeetttweeeett.." over and over. It's so annoying. I wish I could shoot its head off.

letting go

2008-02-19T02:19:00.000-08:00

It's so hard to let go of the past especially when you know it's better to let go. I keep thinking small emotional things of the past are insignificant now and that i do not have any use for them but still when the time comes to leave, i hold on. I find it easier, more comforting. Yet in strange ways it is not comforting. It makes me sad, makes me regret what could have been. I don't dwell on the past but i just find it hard to let go.

praying for you.

2008-01-29T05:15:00.000-08:00

I heard this song called praying for you by Lecrae today and i love it! Makes so much sense. Since i can't think of anything creative to write, here are the lyrics :)

Father God, I'm prayin' to you for somebody, who knows you Lord but just hasn't, hasn't been seein' you in the right view lately, Hear me out...

Father, I'm prayin' for a friend he and I are pretty close, and out of all my friends for this one I'm concerned the most. He say he readin' daily but he ain't really learnin'. He been in church but say that he ain't moved by any sermon. His face weak, he ain't prayed in a week, he wake up and just weep with his face in the sink Lord, you gotta help my man, I'm prayin' for him daily, he ain't sinned but it just seem as if he goin' crazy. He say he feelin' trapped, can't even head up the mall coz every lady's half-dressed temptin' him to lust and fall. He keep the TV off, videos just make him feel that he ain't really nothin' without money, girls and shiny wheels. The other day he told me that he felt less a man coz he ain't have a five-year plan or a piece of land and man it's crazy coz his family think so much of him, plus he got a godly wife who always showin' love for him but he's strugglin', even though he talk to me, I tell him what to do but he don't listen when he oughta' be. I'm scared for him coz there's people that look up to him, he got some younger siblings who been changed by what he's done for them but is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me, is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...

God, his condition is worsen since we were last conversed and I'm with him now and he ain't doin' well and this I'm certain. He say he tryna' trust you, doesn't wanna disgust you but he was in the mist of sinners and did not discuss you and just today his anxiety's got the best of him, he knows Christ but for hours refuse to rest in Him, he's not the best of men but Lord I know he really loves you and I can't understand why lately he's not thinkin' of you. People trust this dude, you could crush this dude, Father he needs more of you I pray you touch this dude, what can I say to him? I'm determined to pray for him Father empty and brake him I pray you'll just have your way with him, coz there's a change in him and the effects are strong, I pray you open up his heart before the next song and when he gets home, I pray he'll open up the sixty-six book love letter you wrote and soak it up coz he ain't hearin' You and he ain't feelin' me and God I know it's killin' You because it's killin' me and matter of fact there's somethin' else he's concealin' see, the person that I've been prayin' about is really me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...

some new year tag

2008-01-20T08:05:00.000-08:00

Bungi tagged me. So here goes..
1. What did I learn?
I learnt that IT is not impossible. IT can be anything. Well if it really is impossible then too bad but if someone has done if before, don't think you can't cos you can. Even if someone hasn't, you can still try...and maybe succeed.
I also learnt about a lot of things that i need pages to explain about. So maybe later.
2. What did I accomplish?
My B.E degree!! hehe.. yes, i'm quite obsessed with it cause i really suffered for my final year project!
And i got my driving license!
3. What would I have done differently?
A lot of things.
4. What did I complete or release?
My final year project.. lol..
5. What were the most significant events of the year past?
Finishing college, Israel, turning 21(officially old now), Malaysia,Japan, Pune, spending time with family and friends.
6.What did I do right?
I didn't give up.
7. What were the fun things I did?
I'm not a fun person. I don't do fun things.
8. What were my biggest challenges/roadblocks/difficulties?
Biggest challenge was definitely my final year project.
9. How am I different this year than last?
Its only been like 20 days into the new year. Ask me in another 10 months.
10. For what am I particularly grateful?
It may sound cliche but first God and then my family and all my friends.

what then?

2008-01-20T07:49:00.000-08:00

I was thinking how sometimes you talk to someone, you laugh with them, you share feelings and emotions with them and you consider them your friend and then one day you realize you don't really know much about them. Stuff about their family, about their personal life, about their spouses/partners, about their children. Nothing you don't know about them at all. And then you feel a bit annoyed cause you share stuff with them and tell them what's going on with you but then they don't do the same. A close friend was telling me this. How she thought she knew this guy cause they spoke often, she enjoyed talking to him, she thought he was funny, understanding and a great friend. Nothing more than a friend but yes, a friend. And then she found out he's actually married (he's from another country and came here for work), has kids and all these stuff she never knew cause he never spoke about them. And she's wondering why. Well i'm not sure why but sometimes i am like that too. I listen to others, i talk to them about their problems, and well i just listen more. I don't talk about me. I don't tell them what i'm going through. Sometimes i feel that i don't need to talk about my problems or what's happening as most people would not be interested. And i'm most of the time not in the mood to talk about myself personally. Sure i talk... A LOT but not to everyone about myself but rather general stuff or common issues. So maybe this person felt the same. Maybe. What do you think?

happy new year

2008-01-19T03:21:00.000-08:00

It feels good to be missed..lol!!
I haven't logged on in ages! I even forgot what my blog looked like. I spoke to Boongi this morning and she said i need to check my blog and being a faithful trustworthy friend who listens to what elders say i signed in.... and i do not know what to write..
Well, i definitely prefer texting to calling. I made up my mind on that.

tagged

2007-11-27T04:53:00.000-08:00

I got tagged by Chris- this is one weird survey!

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
My friend Badar..i dont remember what it was about.
2. What were you doing at 0800?
sleeping
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Sitting with my mom and grandparents and talking about how to decorate the christmas tree.
4. What happened to you in 2006?
I became 3/4th an engineer.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
ok (this survey is weird)
6. How many beverages did you have today?
one-water.
7. What color is your hairbrush?
grey/black
8. What was the last thing you paid for?
some christmas gifts.
9. Where were you last night?
home
10. What color is your front door?
brown-its wooden.
11. Where do you keep your change?
in this little compartment in my wallet
12. What’s the weather like today?
it was nice. rainy and cloudy-perfect.
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
caramel and strawberry cheesecake.
14. What excites you?
a lot of things- shopping, a good movie, etc
15. Do you want to cut your hair?
nope i cut it last week.
16. Are you over the age of 25?
no
17. Do you talk a lot?
sometimes but i'm usually pretty quiet.
18. Do you watch the O.C.?
i used to. it got too crappy.
19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
yes.
20. Do you make up your own words?
yeah.
21. Are you a jealous person?
i try not to get jealous but at times, yes.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Aarthi
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
kirtana
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Anju
25. What does the last text message you received say?
lol
26. Do you chew on your straw?
yes..hehe
27. Do you have curly hair?
kinda.
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?nagercoil
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
not answering this one.
30. What was the last thing you ate?
jammy roll..lol..
31. Will you get married in the future?
i guess.
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
catch and release ( in the last 2 weeks!)
33. Is there anyone you like right now?
lot of people..
34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
last night
35. Are you currently depressed?
not really.
36. Did you cry today?
no
37. Why did you answer and post this?
cos i was bored.
38. Tag few people who would do this survey.
boongi
mahatma
anju
sapna
kavitha

texting or calling?

2007-11-12T21:25:00.000-08:00

A few days ago I realized that I prefer texting people rather than calling and talking to them. There are so much more advantages like :

You don't have to hear their voice.
You stick to the point. You only text what you want to.
No unwanted news or piece of gossip will come out unless your'e really stupid and have no control of what you type.
You don't waste too much money on texts.
Talking to someone takes up too much time.

There are a few disadvantages as well :

You can't listen to their voice.
You can't type that much in one go which makes you just stick to the point.
You can't gossip all that much. It's not as much fun when you sms gossip and news.
Sometimes calling someone is cheaper than texting.
For people who text slowly, calling is way faster.

yes, even Britney!

2007-11-10T05:12:00.000-08:00

Imagine you think of something in your head. This great idea or something innovative or something like that. And you don't tell anyone but next thing you know, someone has accomplished or done that already.
Have any of you felt that way before?
I'm not making this up but it happened to me twice. Well i can only think of two incidences. Maybe there are more.
First, I wrote this song which i'm not naming or telling anyone the lyrics and i even thought of the tune which i normally never do. And then a week or so later, Britney Spears comes up with "I'm not a girl, not yet a women" and it has the exact same tune as MY SONG! I was so annoyed. I'm sure she has some weird psychic powers and got my hot tune. There's no other explanation.
Next one is when i thought of my own airplane company! And what is it called? PiNk! ofcourse! The tail was going to be baby pink and have the words Pink! written in hot glitter pink and it would have pink leather seats and special service for women(I'm sure only women would board this flight). We would have pink champagne, chick flicks, the works.. And the profit would go to the breast cancer foundation (I'm a nice person like angelina jolie and madonna). And where would i get the money to start all this? From Paris Hilton! My future bestest friend! Ok so this was all in my head and maybe a month later i read somewhere that in the UK they are going to start this new airline called pink! I was furious this time! Why? Why me? How do they get these ideas from me? And why don't i get other people's brilliant ideas? Not fair..

the best chocolate cake ever!

2007-11-04T01:39:00.000-07:00

This morning my mom told me that she wants to make a cake to send for Anju.I told her i'll do that since i wasn't doing much in the morning. I went to google and searched for chocolate cake since i wanted to try out something new that's not in our usual recipe book.I found this website that flashes best chocolate cake!the most moist chocolate cake ever!kids love it!adults love it!blah blah.I was excited!And the recipe looked easy. So i then went to my housemaid and she doesn't usually cook so i asked her,"hey do you wanna learn to make chocolate cake?" and she was like yes yes so i taught her and told her to make it.I Told her it was for Anju akka and she was even more excited.Well the cake is done now.It looks like a cake,it smells kinda like a cake and it tastes like..well..not a cake!It was so NOT good!It was moist all right but it WAS NOt the best!I didnt like it and i doubt kids will either!
Well now we're thinking whether we should send it to Anju or no.. haha
So don't trust all recipe sites unless they have reviews.

the champion!

2007-10-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

I love this song by Carman!Take that satan!lol
our church did this play well!

My mermaid barbie

2007-10-25T08:24:00.000-07:00

I visited my best friend in Pune last week and we were talking about the "old times" and the story we always talk about came up.It's the "Gitu wants the mermaid barbie" story.It happened when my friend went to America when we were about 10 years old.Before she left she asked me if i wanted anything and i told her i wanted the new mermaid barbie.Before she came back,i used to call her grandparents house every day and asked when she would come back because i really wanted that mermaid barbie!When i heard they were back home,i got all dressed up and went to their house not because i missed my friend and wanted to see her but because i really wanted that mermaid barbie!!And then my friend tells me,"Gitu i searched all over the States but i didn't find the mermaid barbie".I was so upset.Then she says,"But i found only one and i got it for myself".Well i don't really remember what happened but it seems her dad saw my face and he felt like crying cause i looked THAT sad!So he called my friend's uncle in the States and asked him to buy me one and i got my mermaid barbie atlast!

Kids can be evil..even if the kid happens to be your best friend...!

Oh and i still have my mermaid barbie!!

pay back time

2007-10-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

Last week i started teaching the basics of computers to nursing students.Since its just the know how's of using computer(something i do everyday) it was easy for me as i didnt have to prepare much.Just what to teach each day and giving assignments.But after my 2nd day i knew how my teachers would have felt.There were 3 girls in the corner who didnt do anything they were asked to and had a blank look in their eyes when i taught(sounds familiar?).And i always thought i would be the "cool" teacher but i actually got super annoyed and told them off!And i "scolded" those who didnt do their assigments(ok,seriously how hard is it to do a word doc,a powerpoint presentation and an excel sheet?).Well thats been my week so far.Today i started teaching the 1st year students.Last week was 2nd years.Yes,i lead a boring life.

listen to this

2007-10-05T08:16:00.000-07:00

Hey there Delilah-Plain white T's.

This is my favorite song right now..i cant stop listening to it!

being tagged

2007-09-29T06:35:00.000-07:00

Since all of you read Anju's blog you pr0bably know why i've been quiet for the past 2 week.s

In response to Chris's tag,here are my answers.

1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.

One on my right foot.I got it when i was 9 or so.I was riding one of those tvs 50 mopeds and i had our house maid(who was also my playmate) behind me and she was bigger than me and i was turning and the moped skid and i fell with the moped on me and the silencer burnt me..

2.What does your phone look like?

nokia 6300

3. What is on the walls of your bedroom?

Lots of little things hanging from hooks and nails here and there.My poster days are over.

4. What is your current desktop picture?

That boring mountain thingie whiich comes with windows.

5. Do you believe in gay marriage?

uh....I dont think i should answer this.

6. What do you want more than anything right now?

LOTS and LOTS of things...lol..joking..well i really want to know what my future holds for me.

7 . What time were you born?

sometime really early in the morning.

8. Are your parents still together?

yeah

9. Last person who made you cry?

not sure

10. What is your favorite perfume / cologne?

loads..i love perfumes.

11. What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?

blue or grey eyes and black hair.

12. What are you listening to?

Daniel powter-one night stand.

13. Do you get scared of the dark?

yes,at times.

14. Do you like pain killers?

whats there to like about them?

15. Are you too shy to ask someone out?

YES

16. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?

nestle curds.

17. Who was the last person you made you mad?

probably my parents.

18. Who was the last person who made you smile?

My friend Nive who i spoke to after ages.

can i have some coffee please?

2007-09-08T22:26:00.000-07:00

I went with my mum to trivandrum yesterday to do some shopping.
We saw this coffee day and my mom got all excited and said we should go there.We were going to visit my cousin after that so my mum asked me get him some cake or donut so while i was telling the cashier that,my mum comes up and asks him,"do you serve coffee here?"
This is in coffee day by the way...And the cashier handed over a menu card filled with varities of coffee and my mother said she meant whether they had south indian coffee which sadly they didn't...I was laughing SO hard.My mother didnt find it funny.

the smartest girl on earth

2007-09-08T22:06:00.000-07:00

My last two posts were spontaneous and i wrote them just cause i had to get that out of my mind!
This one is guaranteed to make you laugh...

what is this world coming to???

2007-09-07T19:54:00.000-07:00

He says there were two solutions to stopping the Iraq war. "One is from our side, and it is to escalate the fighting and killing against you. This is our duty, and our brothers are carrying it out," bin Laden said.
"The second solution is from your side. ... I invite you to embrace Islam," he said.

WHAT THE HELL??????

annoyed

2007-09-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

I HATE it when old ladies comment on my hair,weight and clothes.I find it extremely annoying.
They have to realize they have only 4 strands of white hair left and they don't and never had halle berry's body.
And i also hate it when people read your profile and then think they know you very well and say you are a beautiful person with a good heart.I'm not!I'm a terrible person with a mean evil heart.So leave me alone.
And i hate it when my computer makes a weird noise and just shuts down without giving me any time to save what i've done.
And i hate the fact that i'm an engineer and don't know what that problem might be.
I'm pissed now.

just some random stuff

2007-09-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

This is something i found on the internet and thought was interesting and brought back some good memories.Since i was born in 1986 i consider myself a child of the 80s and 90s...

YOU KNOW YOU'RE A CHILD OF THE 80'S IF YOU REMEMBER.....
When Michael Jackson was black
Culture Club
Knight Rider
The Berlin Wall
Ataris
Smurfs
Parachute PantsWhen the "Axis of Evil" involved Russians
Vogueing
Dynasty
Stripey make-up
Flock of Seagulls
Mobiles [cells] that were more brick than phone
He-man & She-raA
time before the Internet
Cyndi Lauper
Miami Vice
Very, very big hair
When people thought George Michael was straight (aka, his WHAM! days)
The Muppets
Molly Ringwald
The Iron Curtin
Transformers
When John Hughes movies weren't about a little kid left Home Alone
Shoulder pads
Ferris Bueller's Day Off
The Bangles
Fraggle Rock
Reading a Choose Your Own Adventure book
Rubiks Cubes
INXS
Family Ties
City of Gold
Pogo Sticks
Being shocked by the controversial plotlines of Degrassi Junior High
Duran Duran
Beverly Hills 90210
Cassette Tapes
Flashdance
When Paula Abdul actually made music rather than critiquing it
Jumpin' Jack Flash
When they practically gave petrol [gas] away
The A-Team
Top GunJackets with the sleeves pushed up
ChernobylBand-Aid (as opposed to Live 8)
The original movie (think Die Hard, Lethal Weapon, Beverly Hills Cop, Rambo, The Godfather)21 Jump St
The Challenger Disaster
The Golden Girls (the 80's equivalent of Sex & The City)
When John Mellencamp was John Cougar Mellencamp

I've probably left out a thousand things that you remember from the 80's so, if I've forgotten anything vital that you remember, let me know!

YOU KNOW YOU'RE A 90s KID IF
*You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air".
*You've worn leggings and felt stylish.
*You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club.
*You use to love playing with your MY Little Pet Shop.
*You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. *You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had scrunchies.
*You remember reading "Goosebumps".
*You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off".
*You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
*You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
*You remember the craze then the banning of yo-yo's.
*You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...
*You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.
*You collected pokemon cards.
*You wore socks over leggings scrunched down.
*You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"
*You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell".
*You played and or collected "Pogs".
*You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger.
*You had at least one GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere.
*You watched the ORIGINAL Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles
*Yikes pencils and rubbers were the shit.
*You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out.
*You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes. *You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
*You thought it would be so cool to be Alex Mack.
*You know the Macarena by heart.
*Talk to the hand" ... enough said.
* You thought Brain from 'Pinkey and the Brain' would finally take over the world.
*You were made to wear a pair of leggings with the straps on the bottom. ie: stir-ups
*Bum Bags, or Fanny Pax whatever you called them.
*You collected tazos.
*I'LL BE BACK!
*2 words ... SPICE GIRLS...

I don't know a lot of stuff on both lists but some of you might so i did'nt edit them..

I read in the newspaper today that this pet cat in sydney was left in a kitchen cupboard after a party and the next morning they found it high with cocaine and benzodiazephine...hahahahahha

pigs

2007-08-28T20:22:00.000-07:00

The other day my cousins Rashmi,Ashwin and myself went to the farm to see the baby pigs.They're cute but they stink so much!I guess thats why they're called pigs..and they eat anything!!
Here's a video of some of them

This video is of Rashmi holding one of the piglets.They squeal like you're going to slaughter them.Well eventually they would be slaughtered but not now anyway,they're small and won't go for a good price...lol...

Then i saw this baby pig pooping..it looked like a small blob of yellow color cream..and after it finished,the mother came and ate it!!It was so disgusting!!
I don't know if i can eat pork again!!

Father of the nation

2007-08-25T21:26:00.000-07:00

I have an older sister.Most of you know her.Just to make things clear,this is not about her.And i'm also sure most of you know the "father of our nation"-Mahatma Gandhi.

*If you are a big mahatma fan,please hit the back button.But this is all in good humor so dont take it personally.*

Ever since i was small,my sister told me he was not THAT good like how people made it seem.That the people who actually fought and shed blood have not been recognised.And that this man just sits and says ahimsa and he's some big hero.That he always had two women beside him and he thought by wearing torn old clothes people would feel sorry for him.That he had good cambridge education but now was sending the poor brits away.And because of the British rule we have trains and roads and buildings.And if the british were still here,Prince William would be visiting every vacation and somehow he would fall in love with my sister and they would have indish or engdian kids...and blah blah..
So anyway,when i was in Madras,i came across this billboard that said,

"You must be the change you want to see in the world."
Mahatma Gandhi
Indian political and spiritual leader (1869 - 1948)

I loved this quote!And after seeing this,i started liking Gandhi a little more.I never disliked him.I mean he did do lots of nice things i'm sure.
Don't ask me why i even did this post but i wanted all of you to know this quote.I haven't started applying it but i'm sure i will someday when i'm OLDer...

some eye candy for you all

2007-08-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

I've decided to be nice and give all of you a little treat.

Gitu's list of good looking men(i was going to say top totty-too much influence from teeny bopper magazines i've been going through from the late 90's).

1.Zac efron

claim to fame:high school musical

2.Stephen gately

claim to fame:boyzone,new beginning,joseph,cinderella,dancing on ice

3.Kavana

claim to fame:instinct

4.Rodrigo santoro

claim to fame:charlie's angels,love actually

5.Santiago cabrera

claim to fame:heroes

6.Jude law

claim to fame:loadsa movies i guess

7.Jonathan knight

claim to fame:new kids on the block

8.Eloy de Jong

claim to fame:caught in the act,stephen gately

9.Criss angel

claim to fame:mind freak

10.Elliot yamin

claim to fame:american idol

nice?

can i have two titles?

2007-08-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

I was looking at this old sock of mine.Here's how it looks,it is white with red horizontal stripes.The toe and heel part are black.And in the feet part it has a big white heart and in black it says,"sweet".I guess you can imagine how ugly it would look.It was so ugly that i actually found it sort of cute.I don't know if that makes sense.

There's this old man who lives in my street.He has a phobia for cars.So everytime he's standing in the street corner and we drive by,he starts moving around,jumping about and stuff.I used to find that quite ridiculous.But now since i'm older and wiser,i put myself in his shoes(i don't think he wears anything on his feet but you know what i mean) and i think he's actually very brave cause imagine i was standing in the street corner and this huge turkey (or any other evil bird for that matter)the size of a car comes zooming towards me...just the thought of it makes me want to die.And i probably would have some minor heart attack everytime the turkey car came near me.So never think someone else's phobia is any less than yours.

nostalgia

2007-08-09T22:33:00.000-07:00

I'm home now.And i don't do much here.Yesterday i was looking through some old CD's i have and i found my spice girls one.I put it on and it felt like it was from some different era.It felt nice yet weird.And then i ofcoarse listened to some boyzone songs after years maybe.No matter what anju thinks,i haven't listened to them or stephen gately in ages.Well anyway,i felt like i was listening to the music of my days.All this is stuff from a decade ago.I never thought i would say stuff like that but it's true.I'm old now.When i was 11 i couldn't wait to be 21 well now that i am,its not all that great!
Then for dinner my aunt called me to kanyakumari cause some of her friends were visiting from sri lanka and they have a daughter who's 16.And this girl was asking whether i liked ludacris,nickleback and i'm like huh?And she's like,"you know,hip hop music" and i truly did feel old when i said i liked michael jackson,boyzone,and other 80's and 90's stuff!And in an attempt to sound cool i said,"oh i like destiny's child and i listen to eminem at times" and i then learnt they both hadn't released any music in a while...
This morning i check my bulletin board and i got this message from stephen gately(its on myspace..so its not actually him) and well,seems like he's going to act in this play called Godspell as Jesus...I wasn't too happy when i heard that...For reasons some of you may know..
Well anyways i got this dream last night that zip yelled at me horribly for not attending the youth meetings on saturday...she's haunting my dreams also...lol..
I'm home alone now...and i can't even have a wild party if i wanted to cause
1)There's no one here that i want to invite.
2)My house is sandwiched between my two uncle's houses.
3)I'm not 18 anymore.
4)If the house got dirty,my mom really would kill me.
5)I'm not a fun person.

Today is my school "canteen day"...How i used to love canteen day!All the food,the competition,the fun...i wanted to go today even though its been 4 years since i finished school but i then realized i would be asked too many questions that i didn't want to answer by too many people.I went to my little cousin Rohan's house and they were making cutlets and cakes and i still remember Anju and me doing that when we were in school...oh well...

i don't know!

2007-07-23T09:48:00.000-07:00

I feel like i want to or have to write something.But my mind is totally blank.There is so much inside of me that i feel like shouting out but i know i cannot.
I don't know why i'm feeling so weird...maybe i do know but i don't know if that's exactly the reason to the way i feel.
Ok i'm going to stop feeling weird.What's the point anyway?It's your own doing and then you just end up feeling lousy.So i'm going to learn to command my brain to snap out of its sorry state whenever it gets into it(like all the time).So how am i going to learn to do that?Here's how:
1.Brain,stop it!
2.Brain,don't get into this mode.I do NOT like it.
3.Brain,You're not making me feel good.
4.Brain,you're the one who gave me the stupid idea to do whatever it is that made me feel this way,so make it go away.It's your fault.
5.Heart(poor brain,taking all the blame),your'e no better than brain.
6.Heart,you think too much(the brain is helping).
7.Heart,right now it's totally your fault.
8.Heart,just pump blood,ok.Don't do anything else.
9.Heart,stop it with all the mushy feelings.
10.Hands,stop typing,your'e not making any sense.

You know what,i'm actually feeling totally ok now.I'm must be a genius and i did'nt even know!!My brain doesn't help me at times.

Random things about me

2007-07-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

Here are some random things about me that you may or may not know:

1.I have a really bad phobia for birds.Any bird.
2.I used to believe i was from the sun(this was when i was really young though.I used to get these deja vu moments when i saw the sun,sarbath(this orange drink) and jelebi(an orange sweet)).
3.I was once called by the principal for kicking a guy.He told his parents and they came to school to complain.(the stupid guy did not tell his part of the story which was tickling my legs for which he got kicked.So i told the principal this infront of his parents..i guess you can imagine who got yelled at).
4.I hate it when people tickle me.
5.n i dnt realy lyk it wen ppl typ lyk tis.cs it taks 2 mch tym to dcode.
6.My friends and i used to prank call people a LOT when we were in school.And we used to prank e-mail and chat with people pretending to be others.
7.When i first heard about euthanasia,i thought it was about the youth in asia.
8.I still remember the name and user id of the first person i ever "chatted" with online(it was using aol messanger under anju's screen name,i was 11 or 12).
9.I have a tendency to be attracted to men who's sexual orientation is favored towards other men.
10.I once saw something else and thought they were balloons.And i was not too discreet about it(I was only 10!).
11.I changed my name for a bried period of time when i was in 7th or 8th standard.
12.I used to be obssessed with barbies..i still quite like them.
13.I wanted to be a fashion designer when i was in 12th standard(most of my math notes then had many of my drawings of clothes!).
14.Before i joined college,i had practised the speech i would give when i got my best outstanding/university first/best extracurricular activities/best overall student award(I got none of the above).
15.I used to have a HUGE crush on salman khan when i was younger.
16.My first crush was jonathan knight(i bet i didnt even know what a crush was then but i thought he was very good looking).
17.After watching the movie stigmata,i imagined that happening to me and thought it was quite cool.
18.I played the evil queen who wanted John the baptist's head when i was in kindergarten(I still don't know how they could make someone with such an innocent face to play such a role).
19.I used to have lots of pen pals from all over the world during the years 1996-2001.I still have all their letters.
20.I started writing a book when i was 13...I wrote 2 chapters.I found it when i was 16 or 17 and almost died of embarrasment!

That's all i can think of now!

something to write about

2007-07-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

I was reading the news on yahoo! the other day and i found an article about Sania mizra and Shahar Peer who were going to play together and how some of the muslims and jews actually protested cause its not right for a muslim and jew to play together,it might cause problems,how it has caused problems in the past and blah blah blah.I thought it was ridiculous!Its about tennis!!!NOT about islam,NOT about judaism and not even that much about Sania or Shahar!!It's about the game they're going to play.But then again i guess the press,the reporters,the newspapers need something to talk about,so why not talk about this?OH MY,a muslim and a jew!Playing together!*Shocker*
Now since i started this blog i kind of imagine how reporters or newspaper/magazine writers might feel(i'm not saying i'm even anywhere close to their level) cause sometimes you feel like you just HAVE to write something.Like at times,i look at some of my posts(maybe this one)and think,"why did i write that?".And i realized i wrote just for the sake of writing SOMETHING!It didn't matter at that time if the post was crap..So i guess i'm actually quite a hypocrite for starting off all annoyed with those tabloid people...cause i'm kinda like them..on a much smaller and less scandalous base!And i guess i better stop writing before i throw in more crap!

the rain,the sand and the sea

2007-06-30T20:49:00.000-07:00

The rains poured out from the dark sky.It poured,how it poured.The phone rings,it is from my oldest and closest friend asking if we could go to the beach.How long,i wondered since we've been to the beach together.Memories from the past came flooding to my head.Memories when we were children,going to the beach,holding hands,our dads yelling,"dont go too far,come closer", jumping when the waves reached our legs,catching crabs(the sea creature)with our hands,making sand castles and then destroying them,writing our names in the sand and hoping someone from the far heavens could see it....ah,good memories indeed.So we went to the beach in the rain.Beautiful,how marvellous it looked,the rough waters of the indian ocean and the grey clouds crying out.I did not think we would go into the waters but we did(and though i did not have spare clothes).It was just like the old days(but with far too less number of people).We held hands and squealed every time a big wave came.The sea was angry,its currents strong but we were brave.But we were not stupid to go too far.In a sudden adventurous moment,i asked my friend if we could go further in and she said she didnt want to die this way and also she did not have her passport with her(in case we reached sri lanka).And i thought about my life being taken away by the waters(my dad did not know i went to the beach,he would not allow me cos the sea was rough and it was raining) and i said out loud ,"oh no, i cant die now,my dad will kill me".My friend laughed like she was going to die.But its true,if i got drowned in the beach,my dad would see my body and probably beat me saying,"i told you you can't go,this is what you get for being disobidient"(i may exaggerate a bit).

And then we built a sandcastle...well it was in reality more of a sand fortress and my tower was the most beautiful with a viewing place and four windows(my friends would say theirs was the best looking but no,it was mine).The sky then decided to pour out harder than ever and we had to leave.

We then went to my uncles beach house and got dressed(i found some clothes there for me to wear) and then got stuck in the biggest traffic jam this town has probably seen and then we saw this accident and a woman was on the road,possibly hurt but not too hurt.And people got down from their cars and bikes and went towards her to WATCH!They were not helping one bit.If they didnt want to help they could just leave but they all stood around her and stared and this one family came all dressed up for it like they were going for some wedding and once the injured lady left,they left too.But they just came there and stood around.It was was so annoying.

This was how my day went yesterday.I tried writing like some fancy author would but i guess i'm just not cut out for that!

is love soft?

2007-06-23T03:45:00.000-07:00

Shalom!

Erev tov!that is good evening to all those who don't understand hebrew...heheh...yeah yeah i know im showing off!Anyways,i'm back from Israel and i'm so in love with it.Most people who know me probably know how much i've been wanting to go and finally God paved the way for me and though it was not like how i thought it would be,it was still amazing.I had a great time and i recommend going to Israel to anyone!We saw so many places i had to keep a diary and write in whatever we did that day or else i'm sure i wouldn't remember!And i have to mention this...the people there are really good looking!

So,back to my title,"is love soft?".My sister got this new toilet paper and its called something(i forgot) and it says "Soft like love" and since most of you know that I haven't really been in love(sans Steve gately) i would honestly like to know,"is love soft?"

dancing cow

2007-05-31T20:44:00.000-07:00

This is a video i took of the cow on anju's table.Its dancing!!But at times it looks like its having the fits or some sort of demon possession!

I have a lot of free time on my hands now and i dont feel like doing anything useful!!

either gay or married

2007-05-19T23:02:00.000-07:00

I have to write this!i do not want anyone asking me anything but i have to say what's on my mind!!

Why is it that anyone i really like is ,well ,unavailable?Take my first love,Stephen gately..ok so he's a celebrity and all but i was young and i really really liked him.And i was quite stupid then(i was young remember) and thought one day he would come for me.I also had this another stupid crush on someone in school(i forgot who it was!) but then found out he liked someone else and i was not upset cos i knew i have Steve and he would come for me(i think i read too many corny love stories back then).But Steve had to have gone and spoilt it all by coming out!"I'm gay and in love"....ahhhhh!!!How those words hurt me then.It was june 16 1999 when he came out but i knew only on june 17 1999(rashmi's birthday).I think i cried for like 3 days and i tore up some of his posters.I was a little crazy then.Then i went to another extreme and started liking Steve's then boyfriend Eloy de jong as well!And i was very happy for them as a couple and was quite upset when they broke up.After a while i just stopped caring for Steve and his gay life!I do like him cos he was after all my first true love and he is after all VERY hot!And for anyone who cares,he's "married" his partner Andy cowles.

Well i never REALLY liked anyone after that but had the random crushes like everyone else..But there was someone i liked.I'm NOT saying who!I don't even know why i liked him but i did.You do not know who he is so please don't ask me.Well i found out today that he's married!!It was quite a shock and im a bit sad.Waaahh! And he didnt even tell me that he's married i found out through someone else. Life can sometime be really mean!

And that saying,"they're either gay or married".....well it is SO true!Trust me on this one!

shattered

2007-05-19T05:22:00.000-07:00

Imagine you're planning this picnic or a trip.You've decided the dates.You've got your tickets.You have your perfect outfit for it.And you can't wait.But then you just have one tiny problem...you haven't asked your parents!I know that sounds childish,asking your parents permission and all.But imagine you're still living with them and depend on them.So finally you ask your parents and they say no.Point blank.End of story.
Its a horrible feeling.That's how i feel now.Well i wasn't planning a trip or anything but something similar.
I always thought i'd let my parents choose my every step and it would be the best.And you know what that thought is starting to come back but i feel miserable.
I thought for once i could do something for me,something that i want to but guess that's not what's in store for me.
Parents know best.I've heard that enough times now,i guess i should just go ahead and beleive it.And that way i don't have to think for myself.Easy.
Waaaah!!!
I'm in quite a depressed mood now so excuse my sorry post.

the perfect man (part 2)

2007-05-14T23:31:00.000-07:00

Here's part 2 of the not so awaited sequel of the perfect man.

So Nathan leaves town and Steph G goes home.It shouldn't be a problem.It'll be fine.So what we don't live near each other.This is what steph g thought.
And it wasn't really a problem,they spoke to each other,they sent text messages to each other and there always yahoo messanger!
Meanwhile Steph G met another guy who was really nice but Steph G is a one man women so she considered this other guy as nothing more than a friend cause she had Nate and he was her mr.perfect.
So what this other guy lives near by,he's sweet,funny and all..no,it doesn't matter.He was not Nathan.
But then,Nathan stopped calling,he texted her like once in a technicolored moon.Apparantly he was "too busy".
And Steph G made it very clear to the other guy she was not interested so now there was no Nate and no other guy.
Steph G had learn her story.
There was no mr.perfect.He does not exist in the real world.
Steph G has something to say:

"All you ladies listen if you ever have the chance to run into your definition of that perfect man,please be blinded by how fine the man is and miss the chance that you might have or you'll never get to be with any other man".

This is a slight modification of the Destiny's child song "perfect man" which says:

"All you ladies listening if you ever have the chance To run into your definition of that perfect man Don't be blinded by how fine the man is And miss the chance that might be your last Make him understand that he's your perfect man"

Steph G and her friends used to beleive in that song when they were young but now that she lost someone that could have been the one because she was running after the perfect man,she doesn't have anyone now!
So listen up and learn from her!

college over!

2007-05-14T23:18:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe this day would come so soon!Ever since we joined college me and my friends used to talk about how we couldnt wait to leave and now that we've left i can't beleive how hard it is to say goodbye.

On may 11th our final year final semester exams got over and it didn't really sink in at first but then my all my friends except Nive,Muneera and Narkis came to stay over and i actually stayed awake and it was so sad...we might never see each other again!Then the next day we stayed over in Nive's and i left that night but heard there were a LOT of tears the next morning.And i was in church that morning and we were singing and i was thinking about all of us and i started crying..if people saw me they probably thought i was so into worship that i'm crying!

...as we go on,we remember all the times we had together...and as our lives changes...we will still be friends forever... amen!

I'm going to really miss you guys!

the perfect man(part1)

2007-05-04T20:29:00.000-07:00

I just realized something...people are more interested in Steph G than they are about me.It is rather sad.

Anyway Steph G has another story(ooh joy!!)but this is a moral story so im sure all my immoral friends out there(like all of you!)would'nt like it.But sit back,you might learn a thing or two.

Two years ago Steph G's grandmother was really sick and was in the hospital for around two months.It was a really tough time for the entire G family as they didnt know if they would see their mother/grandmother ever again.Steph G being a dutiful granddaughter spent a lot of time in the hospital.There,she met this guy called Nathan whose grandmother was also sick!While waiting in the waiting room,they both started talking(he started) and since they both were going through the same thing,they comforted each other.

Steph G then realised there was no point thinking about Ben De Jong well cause he was fictional after all!

And Nathan seemed perfect in every way!Maybe he was her Ben de jong!so what he was not dutch,so what he did'nt have blue eyes?He was still the perfect guy in every other way!

After sometime,Steph G's grandmother got better and so did Nathan's.And they had to leave the hospital.Sadly,Nathan did not live in the same city as where Steph G lived.But Steph G did not think that would be a problem.

[end of part 1]

goodbye crescent

2007-05-02T22:09:00.000-07:00

****This post is boring but its for my memories so one day when i have alzheimers(whats the spelling again?) i can read through this,that is if i remember my user name and password****

I've got exactly 8 days till i finsih college.This is the day i've been waiting for ever since i joined college and i still remember all of us saying oh we cant wait for these 4 years to get over and now that it is,it doesnt seem like such a big deal.I've probably had more bad times than good times in college(exams twice a year is BAD) but now i'm just thinking of all the good times we had and hostel and how i think i actually might miss crescent quite a bit!i'm gonna miss "us" for sure.Half or more than half of us have different "us"es now(the whole marriage and engaged thing).

Joining crescent seems like it just happened and yet it feels like a lifetime.I'll still remember the first time we went to meet shameem banu and i came home crying cos she made hostel look worse than the taliban.The time i came to write the entrance exam with my dad and after i finished the exam and we got ready to leave my dad said,"take a good look at this college cos this is the last time you'll be seeing it". and when i was checking out a bunch of hot guys(where did they gO??cause after i did join i never found them!) my dad said,"they have boys in NI (noorul islam,where everyone including me thought i would join) too!"*cringe*

Well my dad was wrong cos i did join Crescent,well now its B.S.Abdur Rahman Crescent engineering college but crescent sounds better.And i remember day one so well cos i hated it.The only thing that kept me on was hostel cos i loved my friends there!I'm gonna miss you guys so much.But hostel got annoying in the second year with the never ending rules and blah blahs and i left hostel on the day of impulse '05.I'm glad i did.I have good memories of hostel now,dont know if i still would if i continued staying there.

The best semester:1st

The worst semester:3rd and 4th and 8th

8th semester!project!Oh no!that was the most depressing time ever!im so so glad thats over!thank GOD!

There's so much i want to write about hostel and college.I'll do it someday.

Good bye Crescent!

steph G's one true love

2007-03-23T19:20:00.000-07:00

As some of may know,Steph G has not exactly been very lucky in love.It could be because of many different reasons..like weird creepy boys from the past,weird clingy girls from the past,someone not meeting all her 101 criteria,phobia of commitment etc etc.But there is one big reason why...Steph G is still waiting for the man of her dreams.And i mean that literally.When Steph G was young(she is still young though) she had dreams of this one guy.The same guy.Recurring dreams.He was perfect.She didnt really get to see what he looked like in her dreams but Steph G was sure he was gorgeous(come on,all dream guys are hot!).Steph knew one thing..his name..and it was Ben de jong.He was dutch.So while Steph G spent ages of her youth dreaming of Ben,she wrote this poem for him:
Hoping and praying we'd be together someday,
Please Ben,please come my way.
These dreams don't seem to stop,do they?
But i know this is real and not a play.
A part of me has a feeling that you
Feel the same way too.
If the Lord above wishes,
Together forever is what it is.
I don't know Ben,i'm confused,
But i know no one is to be accused
For who and what you are is inside my mind,
I wish i could leave my dreams behind.
I'm a little pebble lost at sea
Pick me up,Ben,let me be
With you life goes beyond,
And i think i love you Ben de jong.

if you think this is corny,remember something,Steph was really young when she wrote this.
And if you think you or someone you know could be Ben de jong,get back..i'll let her know.

valentines day blues!

2007-02-13T08:04:00.000-08:00

Its V-day tomorrow!And Steph G can't help but think of all the lovers out there planning their special day together.But there's also this nagging thought that screams "WHAT ABOUT ME???"When Steph G was younger she used to celebrate valentines day with her friends,get them cards and all that.And the first time "a boy" gave her a flower,she was so embarrased..she stuffed it into her bag and later tore it and threw it out.Yes,she was a disturbed child who found attention rather over whelming(I bet you all are thinking,"that poor rose!").But she was young then and young girls are quite stupid at times.Things dont change much when they grow up!
Ok,back to tomorrow..Steph G actually has two valentines!Technically that's true cause 2 guys have asked her and she,uh..said yes...to both!But that's only because she's a good person and she cannot bear to hurt someone's feelings.And they're both good guys..but there's the problem of choosing!One of them is a really sweet guy who'll be the perfect boyfriend.The other,a wild guy who knows to have fun.Steph G is torn.She can't make up her mind.And it always ends up with the same question,"WHY ME?"...
p.s :Any suggestion as to whom Steph G should choose?

steph G is not my alter ego

2007-02-01T05:03:00.000-08:00

This is to let all of you know that steph G is not me.She is not "an imaginary clone" as someone put it.I'm sure some of you think it's me cause i mentioned she has an older sister but please..there are millions of girls out there who have bigger sisters.I would like to mention however that Steph G is a combination of many many people i know.So that's why i said stories involving her are "quite" fictional.
Before i started blogging about Steph Girl i had so many stories but now i'm quite blank.But dont worry,she's quite a handful so i'll have plenty of stories coming up.Or so i wish.

Evolution of steph G

2007-01-26T23:56:00.000-08:00

This is the story of a girl called Steph Girl aka Steph G.She's just a piece of my imagination.Any story or incident involving her is quite fictional.So if you have a feeling of deja vu reading anything about steph G,please,its not about you,its about steph G.
Steph G is a nice girl.She has her own hang ups like everyone else.She can be a bit wacky at times but then again,who is'nt?Steph G has an elder sister who used to be steph g's biggest nightmare when she was growing up.Which bigger sister isn't,yeah?
I'll start the chronicles of steph G in my next blog..!i know you all are an impatient lot but "patience,iago" as steph G would say.

the grass is greener on the other side

2007-01-10T05:14:00.000-08:00

project time in college.i always thought "project" in the final semester would be a blast!after all there's only 2 days of college and even that's only half day each.well this is what i THOUGHT!you know being a junior,watching all those final year students leave class you think man,i cant wait for that...now that i am in the final semester,man don't i miss sitting in class doing nothing!I'm doing my project under one of those strict guides who expect you to learn,research and then do it...well who would have thought about all this,yeah?I know this is probably the best way but im such a lazy thing,i prefer the easy way out...you know going to some institute,getting someone to help you through and through and of coarse paying them...:)
Ok i dont want to talk about the project anymore.even thought its going to drain all my happiness,all the life in me and make me a dull grave person..its ok..only 4 more months..and after all,at the end of the day,God is in control!

i'm not ashamed!

2006-12-17T00:12:00.000-08:00

This morning i was just thinking how i am usually ashamed to proclaim my faith,my God etc and how most other people have no problem with that.most people of other faiths openly say that only their way is right and the others are wrong.So i was wondering why should i be ashamed to say JESUS is my LORD?when i know thats the truth,why should i feel bad about shouting it aloud?who am i scared of?what people will think about me?So today in church all these thoughts were going thro my head and i'm like i'm going to make a start starting with my blog cos ahem,not many people really read it.And i thought i'll start with a poem i once wrote.I hope it doesnt hurt anyone and if it does,hey,the truth hurts!!Ok,here goes:
I have a dream,a distant vision.
Right now it seems impossible,
Like it could never be seen.
With Your grace,i pray,
Please hear what i have to say.
In my dream,there I stand,
Not alone but in a big band.
Who's in it?I daresay..
My sisters and brothers from ****(bonded) jail!!
With torn veils and bonds free,
We sing,"Jesus, we worship Thee".
Our faces are happy,our burdens light,
We plead,"Jesus,bring us into Thine sight".
Have mercy Lord,don't show us Your wrath,
We're really sorry for choosing the wrong path.
Jesus is forgiving and merciful,
If you ever leave Him,then you'd be a fool.
Christianity is about love,forgiveness and its fun!
Come,let's follow God's only Son!
I see all of us are on our knees
And its quite clear the past has deceased.
I can hear us cry,"Thank You for saving us,
YOU're our God,our Savior,my Jesus.
You died and gave us right to call You mine,
You're mercy and love is forever divine".
Now i come back crashing to reality
knowing my prayers will be answered when Jesus says"it shall be".

i wrote this on 03.august.2005... this is my poem,my thought,my dreams.

and well after service today,Billy yesudian sang a song that said Im not ashamed,i will proclaim Jesus Christ is Lord of my life.It just made so much sense as to what i was thinking about.

i wish!

2006-12-13T20:31:00.000-08:00

I was just thinking of things that i could only wish were true:
1.Me in a clothes store,asking a sales girl,"would you by chance have this in a size 2"?
2.Anna university declares they are no longer going to conduct exams and are going to rate the students based on their high school perfomance.
3."oh,i'm sorry dahling but i'm busy tomorrow night,dolce would be very upset if i dont make it to the paris show".
4.I wake up every morning and i don't see the world blurry.
5."Yes,i do love what i'm learning about in college,it's truly my passion in life".
6.Simba is not my dog,he's my baby lion/tiger cub.
7.age/sex/location:Ireland.(it would'nt hurt if stephen G is my neighbour).
8.I hate chocolates/cakes/and everything un healthy...
9.the world is so peaceful,it gets boring.
10.....i cant mention this one here,might hurt a few people...sorry.

my life

2006-12-12T17:53:00.000-08:00

The day before my exams got over,i was listening to some music..something i dont normally do while having exams.I was listening to the song "Before the throne of God above"written by Charitie Lees Smith Bancroft in 1863.This is one of my favourite Chrsitian songs.And i was listening to the last stanza and i felt like it reflected my whole life,what's going to happen,what has already been done and my present.It made so much sense,i thought i'll let others know as well!!
This is the entire song:

Before the throne of God aboveI have a strong and perfect plea.
A great high Priest whose Name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me.
My name is graven on His hands,My name is written on His heart.
I know that while in heaven He standsNo tongue can bid me thence depart.
When Satan tempts me to despairAnd tells me of the guilt within,Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end to all my sin.
Because the sinless Savior died,My sinful soul is counted free.
For God the just is satisfiedTo look on Him and pardon me.
Behold Him there the risen Lamb,My perfect spotless righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
The King of glory and of grace,
One in Himself I cannot die.---> my future.
My soul is purchased by His blood,--->already paid for.
My life is hid with Christ on high,With Christ my Savior and my God!--->my life,as of now.

yucksams over!!

2006-12-12T17:46:00.000-08:00

My exams are over!!yayyyyy...my exams are over....!!!i could go on!
To me,exams are like the dementors in the harry potter books,they suck the life and all the happiness out of you.I really am not exaggerating!ask any of my friends.Im sure they'll all agree.And being under AU and having to major in ECE doesnt help one bit either.
Im so glad they're over and i really thank God for helping me retain my sanity.It was on the verge of falling off!!
I'm still all stressed out thinking about my project work and all but i guess i should learn to take things one day at a time.

weird english

2006-11-09T02:34:00.000-08:00

ok im just sitting here wondering what to write..im in my hometown right now and the weather is so gorgeous..have you noticed how we say "oh the weather is so gorgeous","this cake is so beautiful","ooh youre looking hot/spicy/delicious"...i dont know,i was just thinking how weird the english we speak has become.i think most of the people i know make so many bloopers while talking i should have a posting just for that..like the other day instead of saying the fish is kept frozen in the fridge ms.G said the fish is kept in the frozen fridge.and i was telling my sister about my childhood dream of becoming a pilot and she said when you ply a flane instead of fly a plane..well this is all i can think of now..will keep you posted tho!

the new van gogh

2006-10-22T05:01:00.000-07:00

today i realized my inner self,my true spirit..i am an artiste!van gogh,you have competition!ok so thats a little too much exaggeration but i,after 15 years took out my drawing book and i painted!its so gorgeous!its abstract so dont ask what it is.i should start my career as an artist.i can see it...gi2 s's exhibition of abstract paintings in new york's art museum...or i should sit by the eiffel tower and draw an abstract version of tour de eiffel!i uh,tend to get carried away...heheh..

me

2006-10-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

ok im right now being told to say something about myself in my brand new shiny blog!well..im bad at introductions....its like writing the about me part in orkut or your personal profile in a resume!well im 20 years young(boo hoo!),im indian(jai hind),im christian(praise the Lord!),and im studying the most boring subjects known to man in uni(boo hoo again!!).i uh,like reading,i like watching movies.the kind of books and movies i read are girly and fun(like yours truly!).well i am actually quite boring but im girly alright.i like pink(yes boongi,PINK!) and purple and black and all the beautiful bright colors!im like a technicolor black person!*such a dazzling coat of many colors,how i love my coat of many colors*.my childhood sorry teenhood or teen years or whatever that ancient part of my life was called was centered around stephen gately.I was obsessed with him.but now im grown up and mature,thank you very much.(NO im still not obssesed about him anju!).
im not a very stable person.my mind is like a pendulam!i can never make it up.i've had as many ambitions as you've had socks.but right now im worried as of whats next.no girl,worry is bad..stop it!
erm......i really dont know what else to put up,dont worry you'll get to know me if i ever continue to blog on a regular basis..:)

cloverr

2006-10-21T08:58:00.000-07:00

Cloverr, clover...they’re all the same..one just has an extra r.No big difference,really.clover is a leaf thingy which is vair vair popular in oireland and the four leaved type is supposed to bring good luck…clovers are a symbol of good luck. I’m not
sure if I bring good luck…you should ask the people who hang out with me…well I guess I don’t and I don’t really believe in good luck.If it’s meant to happen, good or bad, it will happen. Well I’m just your average girl who belongs in a normally abnormal family.And i'm not oirish.